Come Back to Me

The emotional plea “come back to me” was famously used in the movie Atonement when the female lover (played by Kera Knightly) had been wrongly and unfairly separated from her true love, and realised that the prospect of reconnection with her lover (played by James McAvoy) was slipping away.

It has been used since then in several films where reconnection is desired by two people stemming from a deep past love (such as Arrival, The Notebook, The Jacket, End of the Affair). For those who have been subjected to such a separation, the sound of these words can cause a deep emotional response (or perhaps remembering).

It goes to the core of Howdie Mickoski’s third book Empty the Cave (published 2024) in his trilogy of books about exiting the matrix. The idea being that certain humans possess a divine spark which isn’t complete. It is only half of the total ‘spark’ or ‘essence’, with the other half languishing alone elsewhere beyond this realm.  The essence trapped here in a human body needs to return to and reunite or unify with its other half to become whole again.

Like the scenarios in the above-mentioned films, the two halves were split apart in unexpected and unwanted circumstances, leading to trauma. This is the true trauma that such humans (the ones with Sparks) hold here on Earth, not the relentless suffering that they experience due to the design of the system they have found themselves trapped in.

Howdie makes some excellent suggestions on how this reunification might be achieved. It is a hard road he takes us down, which requires us to leave behind any thought that the realm and body we inhabit now can be of assistance.

Quite the opposite actually: The body and realm is designed to keep the Spark trapped, so the way out is to detach from all the trappings of life here, cleanse the essence back to its original blueprint and then departure should be straightforward.

Being ‘trapped’ here is only in our minds, we are free to leave once our attachment to this realm and everything associated with it is relinquished. That is the way back Home. No part of the ‘matrix’ system can stop us, as we are nothing, and ‘no-thing’ can’t be blocked from leaving this slaughterhouse hell-realm.

As Howdie says right at the start of the book, we exit ourselves as much as we exit the realm which is holding us. We ‘depart’ and leave everything behind. The problem is that although many people have now worked out that the design of the world is unfair and causes trauma and suffering, and that the ‘god’ of this world is not a loving god, they haven’t worked out that they themselves are just as much a problem. We are weighed down and must release that weight.  

Wars, illness and financial collapses obviously don’t help our day to day living, but the ingenious design of the Controllers is to make humans torture each other relentlessly. Howdie uses the example of the storyline in the excellent tv series The Good Place to make this point.

We have to leave behind our false self. If we look in the mirror, or into still water, we will see an image of ourselves. We think this is ‘us’ but what few realise is this is not ‘us’, it’s simply a (holographic) projection, and is the way that the Controllers of this false realm persuade us that we can’t leave here because that image is ‘us’. We appear solid so what else could there be? It’s hard for people to realise that the person we are looking at in the mirror is irrelevant and not really the true ‘you’. It’s just a person loaded up with hopes, fears, worries, wants, beliefs and much more which have been programmed into that body. The true ‘you’ is invisible and will slip past the guardians of the threshold on death and will be Home before they can blink.

The book has many unique thoughts and concepts, and is worth a read. All these concepts can’t be addressed in a short blog. However, a couple are worth a mention.

Howdie considers that we need to “wake up” our other half that resides outside the system. He uses the analogy of Sleeping Beauty to make this point. His view is that only if that other half is “awake” can we communicate with it and reunite with it. However, many researchers and spiritual healers and travellers have stated that we can access our “higher self” at any time. This is who we should be connecting with in troubled times, not some ‘god’ of this realm who we ‘pray’ (prey) to. When we are out of body (disembodied) whether on death or during dreamtime or when travelling out of body, if we get lost, we can just say “Higher Self Now!” and we are there. This was the tried and tested philosophy of William Bulhman, a leading Munroe Institute trainer. He wrote the excellent book Higher Self Now on this topic.

The other point is that all humans have a soul. This seems right, as the assemblage point information backs this up. But the Divine Spark is held by only a limited number of humans, who have the reconnection facility outside the matrix realm.

The final point is, what if we don’t make it out? The answer to that is that we go through the trauma of being eaten when we die (at least our energy/emotions are, as the body has gone) by the beings on the other side who designed us for this purpose. Then we are returned to Earth in a new body to be fattened up so that this loop can continue the feeding frenzy time and time again.

The answer that Howdie (rightly) says is: get your house in order before death, and prepare well for death. The time to do that is now.

The book is a worthy read, with great ideas, which are not spoilt by the plentiful typos, slack editing by an editor who Howdie admits in the text does not understand what he is writing about, and some over-lengthy explanations.

Get reading, and get preparing. There’s no time to waste.

7 July 2025